Reflections - From Heart to Heart 1.0
Hey, besties ! Welcome to another chat. I hope you're all doing well !
After a brief hiatus, during which I spent two weeks with my family in the tranquil setting of Tozeur, I felt it was time to have a heart-to-heart with you, just as I hinted on my 30th birthday.
2022 was a year of immense achievement and blessings. I reached my goals, enjoyed enriching trips, acquired a new car and house, and experienced significant professional success. Life was, by all accounts, splendid.
However, as 2023 unfolded, the first three months brought unexpected challenges. I found myself struggling with a hidden battle: depression. It crept into my life silently, and for a while, I didn't even recognize it.
The beginning of 2023 was marked by uncertainty. I faced visa issues for Canada, and the dream of becoming a parent remained elusive. The weather mirrored my inner turmoil, exacerbating my emotions. These challenges piled up, pushing me into a state of introversion, where all I wanted was to retreat into solitude.
Many of you noticed a change in my energy during that time, and I'm thankful for your concern and support. There were moments of anxiety and breakdowns, but the steadfast love of my husband and the unwavering friendship of Syrine kept me going.
I vividly remember one time when I was cleaning my room, and out of nowhere, I was gripped by an anxiety attack. Tears flowed uncontrollably, but my husband knew exactly what to do – he held me close, offering comfort and solace until the storm passed.
Depression made me withdraw from my usual social interactions, leaving some of my friends puzzled. I couldn't find the words to explain what I was going through, and for that, I apologize. Talking about it felt futile. Yet, it was Syrine, my dear friend, who noticed something was amiss. She recognized that my sudden withdrawal from our usual outings meant more than just needing space to recharge.
Syrine's unwavering support was a lifeline during those dark times. She visited me, invited me out, and reminded me that I didn't have to face this battle alone. Eventually, I took a crucial step on my journey to healing. I sought help from a psychologist, someone skilled in understanding and addressing the complexities of the mind. It was a turning point, a step towards self-discovery and recovery.
Pregnancy further isolated me as I navigated the rollercoaster of emotions and hormones. It was a challenging period for someone who cherishes life's joys. But here I am, returning to you with a renewed spirit, stronger and more grateful than ever. I've worked on self-acceptance and come to appreciate the incredible support of my husband, my sister, and Syrine.
I am filled with immense gratitude for all those who stood by me during this challenging chapter. The love and understanding you offered were truly invaluable. It's a testament to the strength of human connections and the power of kindness.
If you find yourself in a similar situation, please know you're not alone. Seek help, talk to a professional, and work on accepting and understanding yourself.
Remember, Besties, that facing our weaknesses and vulnerabilities is a sign of great strength. It's okay to ask for help, and it's okay to not be okay at times. Embrace your journey, and don't shy away from seeking the support you deserve.
You are not alone, and you are stronger than you think. Take care of yourselves and each other.
Be safe and stay strong.
With love, Riri
